A Language I Was Not Given
I was taught
to write in English.
To press words into form
like linen between palms,
crease-less.
Safe.
I was never taught
the language of ash,
the sound a name makes
as it disappears
from a register.
When a boy vanishes
on his walk to school,
how does his mother
say grief?
Is it in the same accent
with which I say grief
in workshop poems?
Or is it
another sound entirely —
one that doesn’t ask
to be understood?
There are alphabets
that burn in the throat.
I write in the one
that never does.
And this is how silence wins –
not with guns,
but with grammar.
to write in English.
To press words into form
like linen between palms,
crease-less.
Safe.
I was never taught
the language of ash,
the sound a name makes
as it disappears
from a register.
When a boy vanishes
on his walk to school,
how does his mother
say grief?
Is it in the same accent
with which I say grief
in workshop poems?
Or is it
another sound entirely —
one that doesn’t ask
to be understood?
There are alphabets
that burn in the throat.
I write in the one
that never does.
And this is how silence wins –
not with guns,
but with grammar.



